I'm not sure if the next few posts will be the continuing part or not. Part of me whats to just go ahead and type it all out while I have it mostly fresh on my mind. Another part of me wants to build the suspense and give my readers a little bit more than just a post a day to look forward to. As devastating of a year it was for me, it is a story I oddly enough can't wait to share. I think part of my wants people to realize just how much a bottle things up, and hide my true feelings.
The year started off as a normal year. I woke up early in the morning to set in a building for seven hours, and walk in between periods. This of all years was the year I thought to myself "Okay this is my last year, I want to actually try" and I did, at first anyways. I remember walking into every one of my classes, just ready to learn.
My favorite class being piano which took place early in the morning. Piano is my life, I love listening to it, and I can't stand not being able to play it. When I'm down or had a bad day at school, it was my go to thing. Many didn't know how well I played, I still don't consider myself very good, but what happened after the day of that class was just completely awe-inspiring. It made my day.
In that classroom there is a piano hidden behind two heavy wooden doors. It was the first day and everyone who was in that class just took the time to catch up. Me not having any friends in that class at the time, decided I would take the time to go play the piano, it was an upright piano, so I wasn't able to put headphones in. Normally I would put headphones in, but I love acoustic pianos, so I made an exception in that class. It after all wasn't the first time I took that class.
I hadn't paid attention to see if the doors had closed behind me, because the sound of the piano didn't normally carry to far into the classroom. I remember thinking of all the songs I knew how to play, at that time I think I played bits and pieces to a few Coldplay and Linkin Park songs. It had been a while since I had played an acoustic piano, so I was a bit shook up worrying if anyone had heard me. I guess everyone was done catching up in the other room so that had just been quite most of the time. They were listening to me play.
I walk into the room were everyone else is and the all just start clapping. Of course this was the year I was planning on being a bit more submissive about my playing, mostly because many other students would get nervous on days of recitals after I played. No one wanted to go first and I always wanted to get it done and over with.
After that day, things just got better. I loved the classes I was taking, not only challenging but also fun. I really enjoyed being in piano class though. It was the first year when someone who was better than me liked listening to me play. Not only was she good at playing the piano she was also very winsome. I had never really talked to a girl before, so it was an interesting experience for me... I remember one day she told me to just play.
A few weeks pass and something just feels off, like nothing was real. I had never been so happy to be in school. I felt for the first time like people notified me as a person and not a cure for their unfortunate lives. I really only had one friend throughout my school life, everyone else just made fun of me, they didn't like me. Starting off a new year as a new person went so well at first than it all took a turn for the worse.
He was more of an acquaintance than a friend, but now I consider him a friend. This person had been the biggest bully throughout my school career, and why I still associated with him was because not only was he a bully but he also came to me for help. It also may have something to do with the fact he and I both played World of Warcraft and I was his gold provider, so he had to be nice to me.
I don't remember when he first started missing school, because he always seemed to me like the person who skip out a bit, or just not be where he was suppose to be all the time. Weeks had gone by and he would, at first, go to the nurse almost everyday he was at school, at least when I saw him. Of course I thought he was faking it, but then again him and I never really talked so I didn't know what was going on at the time.
Later in the year he vanished from school all together, and showed up on a few occasions. In the mean time from what I had heard, he was going to the doctors because he was having really bad migraines. I think he was put on medicines in which wouldn't work, missing even more school, and more doctor visits. It was a dark and gloomy day for me and his friends when we found out what was going on. I was there with him as much as I could be, and helped him every step of the way.
I'm awful I know, this post is already fairly long and I figured instead of starting were I originally wanted, I would start at the beginning of the year and show that it wasn't all that bad of a year. I suppose I also wanted to introduce a bit of moment of despair sort of tone. Everything is all peachy and well, then all of a sudden not anymore. Hopefully everyone enjoy the nice weather we had today! I know I sure did. Even though I was to tired to be out and about after work today.
The year started off as a normal year. I woke up early in the morning to set in a building for seven hours, and walk in between periods. This of all years was the year I thought to myself "Okay this is my last year, I want to actually try" and I did, at first anyways. I remember walking into every one of my classes, just ready to learn.
My favorite class being piano which took place early in the morning. Piano is my life, I love listening to it, and I can't stand not being able to play it. When I'm down or had a bad day at school, it was my go to thing. Many didn't know how well I played, I still don't consider myself very good, but what happened after the day of that class was just completely awe-inspiring. It made my day.
In that classroom there is a piano hidden behind two heavy wooden doors. It was the first day and everyone who was in that class just took the time to catch up. Me not having any friends in that class at the time, decided I would take the time to go play the piano, it was an upright piano, so I wasn't able to put headphones in. Normally I would put headphones in, but I love acoustic pianos, so I made an exception in that class. It after all wasn't the first time I took that class.
I hadn't paid attention to see if the doors had closed behind me, because the sound of the piano didn't normally carry to far into the classroom. I remember thinking of all the songs I knew how to play, at that time I think I played bits and pieces to a few Coldplay and Linkin Park songs. It had been a while since I had played an acoustic piano, so I was a bit shook up worrying if anyone had heard me. I guess everyone was done catching up in the other room so that had just been quite most of the time. They were listening to me play.
I walk into the room were everyone else is and the all just start clapping. Of course this was the year I was planning on being a bit more submissive about my playing, mostly because many other students would get nervous on days of recitals after I played. No one wanted to go first and I always wanted to get it done and over with.
After that day, things just got better. I loved the classes I was taking, not only challenging but also fun. I really enjoyed being in piano class though. It was the first year when someone who was better than me liked listening to me play. Not only was she good at playing the piano she was also very winsome. I had never really talked to a girl before, so it was an interesting experience for me... I remember one day she told me to just play.
A few weeks pass and something just feels off, like nothing was real. I had never been so happy to be in school. I felt for the first time like people notified me as a person and not a cure for their unfortunate lives. I really only had one friend throughout my school life, everyone else just made fun of me, they didn't like me. Starting off a new year as a new person went so well at first than it all took a turn for the worse.
He was more of an acquaintance than a friend, but now I consider him a friend. This person had been the biggest bully throughout my school career, and why I still associated with him was because not only was he a bully but he also came to me for help. It also may have something to do with the fact he and I both played World of Warcraft and I was his gold provider, so he had to be nice to me.
I don't remember when he first started missing school, because he always seemed to me like the person who skip out a bit, or just not be where he was suppose to be all the time. Weeks had gone by and he would, at first, go to the nurse almost everyday he was at school, at least when I saw him. Of course I thought he was faking it, but then again him and I never really talked so I didn't know what was going on at the time.
Later in the year he vanished from school all together, and showed up on a few occasions. In the mean time from what I had heard, he was going to the doctors because he was having really bad migraines. I think he was put on medicines in which wouldn't work, missing even more school, and more doctor visits. It was a dark and gloomy day for me and his friends when we found out what was going on. I was there with him as much as I could be, and helped him every step of the way.
I'm awful I know, this post is already fairly long and I figured instead of starting were I originally wanted, I would start at the beginning of the year and show that it wasn't all that bad of a year. I suppose I also wanted to introduce a bit of moment of despair sort of tone. Everything is all peachy and well, then all of a sudden not anymore. Hopefully everyone enjoy the nice weather we had today! I know I sure did. Even though I was to tired to be out and about after work today.
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