Summer Plans

     I have a good amount of activities planned for this summer. I did plan on doing a separate post over each thing but I felt I wouldn't be able to come up with enough to say for just one project. If I feel like to split this post than I will, and I will more than likely find more things I would be willing to try this summer as well.

     One of the things I planned for this summer I had mentioned in my article Backpacking. For those who haven't read it yet feel free to, but basically I plan on traveling around a bit. By foot is ideal since that is backpacking. Traveling in general though would be just as fun. I had also planned on taking a plentiful amount of pictures for my nature blog, or a new photography blog if I feel the need to be organized about my photos.

     Aside from backpacking however, I also plan on trying to plant a flower bed, and possibly a rose bed. I love plans, if it were up to me the whole yard would be nothing but flowers and trees, but my parents aren't to keen on that idea for some reason. Part of the reason I want to plan beds is so I have more plants to turn into stars. I would be able to take pictures daily and upload them on my photography blog Opachii's Photography. More than likely if this happened I would create separate blogs for different types of flowers to stay organized... I hate feeling the need to be so organized but it bothers me if I'm not.

     Along side the flower and rose bed, why not try an orchard? I want to plant a forest but my parents of course don't like the idea of that and frankly there just isn't enough yard left to do so. I rather enjoy tending to nature. I can help it thrive without the worry of offending someone or being judged. I plan on planting something around twelve to fifteen trees, all depends on how much space I have left over from the beeboxes.

     The last thing I have in mind for this summer at the moment is bees. I'm hoping to become a bee keeper. Not only would it be a fun experience, but it would also be a smart move. My plants would thrive, and anything that bares fruit should produce much better bushels. One of the reasons I want a rose bed is, because the only way to get rose seeds is if bees pollinate the flower. I would then use the seeds to make starts, and either breed different verities of roses or just sell them the way they are. I'm unsure about rather or not I want to take the time to cross rose breads.

      

Blogoholic!

     Not only am I workoholic but it turns out I'm a bit of a blogholoic too. I guess I just love keeping myself. If I'm not working I normally either think of new blogs I can make, or I try to find content for the blogs I already have. Some blogs it's harder to find interesting post worthy content others not so much. I currently got done with gathering screen shots for one of my guide blogs. Turns out I have enough screenshots to cover well over 60 posts, which is nice and all I just need to find the time to add wording in with the pictures than I'm good to go.

     I currently have 10 blogs only 6 of which I manage, and that still isn't enough! There is so much more I would love to blog about and with as organized of a person as I am, a few blogs simply wont do. Plus it is always nice to keep different groups separate. I don't want a Terraria fan based community interfering with my World of Warcraft fan based community, it allows other people to feel a bit more comfortable and welcomed.

     Anyways not only do I have 10 blogs to my name, I also have few ideas for other blogs... just a few -.-. I have written down because only God would remember them if I don't write them down. I have thought about doing a movie review channel. I'm not sure if I will be doing one or not because the only thing I really ever watch is Family Guy, every now and then American Dad or Futurama. My idea behind the blog was I can't seem to watch a movie all the way through without criticizing it at some point. I would have gone over the parts that I enjoyed and gave input in what I thought would have made parts I didn't like better. A writing exercise for me nonetheless.

     A steam game review once crossed my mind as I don't really like playing games because they are games, I am fairly picky with what I choose to stare at, I like a lot of creativity in the games I play. A good story more than anything. There are a decent amount of games within the steam library that are under five dollars and I figured "Why not review these games to help others find games they may enjoy" Rather or not it will happen I'm not sure. To be honest I'm not much of a gamer.

     This one I'm still pondering over. It is something I would really like to do and my brother has opt to help me with some of the content, though it isn't something I would like to just through together and call it good. I'm very much so into EDM, electronic dance music, I found a demo version of the studio many of the well known DJ's and artists use. Though limited to a various amount of sounds, it is still enough I should be able to come up with my own music which would be cool to be known as DJ Opachii, but that is only a dream as of today.

     Now I have mentioned before that I own a nature photography blog, Opachii's Photography. Though one thing that crossed my mind one day while seeing an adult coloring book on my grandmothers table. Why not turn some of my photo's into coloring pages? This is something I do plan on doing though I have only found one way of turning my photo's into coloring pages and I'm not to fond of the way they turn out. I may draw them and try to get a bit more of a cartoon style, but as of now I just need to find a better way to transform them.

     Okay so I think a bit to much sometimes... all the time perhaps. Since I haven't been writing, why let my ideas go to waste? I would definitally have to be careful about this and not give to much detail, but I would simply turn some of the ideas I'v jotted down into prompts. I don't really have enough written down, key word written. I can be a bit forgetful sometimes, but I don't have enough content to start a blog at the moment though it would really take a day of brain storming and I could have a few hundred prompts.

     This will be one I would do in the future more so when my blogs become a bit more popular due to the fact it would be nothing to the people I help if they aren't getting any views off it. A promotion blog is something I feel a bit compelled to do. Mostly because I know how hard promoting can be. It would be a few promotion site of course, and I'm undecided how I want to find my content for this blog. I could just do it to be nice and help a small youtube channel, or I could take application type things and promote one person a week. Either way I feel it would be fun to do something like this.

     If you struggle with synonyms as much as I do than this might just be a blog you would want to check out. I have a pretty small vocabulary, probably because I don't enjoy reading... a writer who doesn't read, how odd. I have been gathering synonyms I use in my stories to create a word of the day blog. I often find myself with an open tab saying "synonym for" just in case I feel like I should spice up the sentence structure. I normally do it for my blogs too, but this one I feel like I should try to work on it on my own instead of using the interwebz.

     These will end up being separate blogs because of course both communities don't get along all the time, but I plan on doing a card opening blog for not only Pokemon (Yes I still collect Pokemon cards) and Magic to Gathering. Often you will find videos over people opening card pack, how this is entertaining? *Shrug*. I was recently looking up to see if any one else has a blog over such a thing and I didn't find any. I thought that since I don't like talking taking pictures would be a good way to go about doing this.

     As you are aware I'm doing a bit better today, hence the tasteful humor. I'm sure there will be many other blogs I dream to start, I know there was one that I guess I didn't write down. :O I remembered something... I enjoy baking oddly enough so I thought about blogging recipes I make. I would take a picture of the finished product and probably rate how easy or hard it was to make for people just starting off. Hopefully everyone had as wonderful of a day as I did!        

Optimism

     Sorry this is a late post, I was hoping to get it at least typed out while a was at work, but I was on dishes most of the night and when I got time my phone was about dead. Anyways, tired and wore out I have time to put together more sentence that probably don't make a whole lot of since.

     I am a very optimistic person which in the long run tends to hurt more than it does help. Generally I don't like people seeing me in pain, seeing my suffer from a deleterious disease. It makes me feel weak, most people look down upon the weak even though they still feel pain, like everyone else. Most times when I'm in a really good mood it's because I hide the true face of despair. I don't want the attention from someone else, I would rather give them attention.

     The reason optimism hurts in the long run is because people always relay on you to be okay with what ever they tell you to do, even if it bothers you or they know you can't do it. I don't complain a whole lot so when I do people go all ape shit. I'm just going to call my headaches migraines because I do believe that is what they are. I have several of the symptoms and anxiety can cause migraines.

     These migraines are by far the worst pain I have ever felt, I can't see very well, the effected side of my head my eye waters if the migraine doesn't effect both sides, which today it effect both sides of my head. I feel like I'm running a high fever, my nose gets runny, sometimes like today, I can barely stand. I don't complain though, I don't go around asking for petty by saying my head hurts, or that I can't do this because I have a headache like many others would do just to get out of a task they don't want to do.

     The second I say something hurts and I can't do a task because of it, it suddenly becomes and excuse, even though other people have the same problem and get away with not doing certain tasks. For example I have a bad shoulder, I don't know whats wrong with it. I have had x-rays done to see and the results came back with nothing unusual. It could be arthritis but it hurts every day, some days more than others. I can withstand the pain but the more it hurts the less I can lift, it's almost like it's dislocated shoulder that I'v had for years. Anyways for a while I was doing a task I hadn't done, and I started doing it every day I worked, which I couldn't continue to do everyday because it involved me lifting my shoulder over my head. With a good amount of weight I couldn't do it.

     I mentioned something to the supervisor, he was okay with it and understood as you can clearly see one shoulder is lower than the other. Next day I work I had to do this task again so I said something to the boss, in which she was okay with it too. The other managers find out one I think understood but the other of course didn't. They took it as I was trying to get out of it. Yeah I didn't like the task but there are many tasks I don't like doing at work. I do dishes nearly every day I work, I don't like it but no one else does them, at least not very often.

     I mentioned I feel others should start helping out on dishes a bit more, which only one manager seemed to have a problem with that. I guess I'm just full of excuses. People tend to relay on the people who don't complain. I'm optimistic so I put a smile on no matter the day, it could be the worst day in my life, and I'm still helping others, trying my hardest not to let them see me suffer.

     I'm twenty now and had my first girlfriend at twenty, I'm not a chaser, I'm happy for who I am not who I date. It only lasted a few weeks, but I didn't show it, not at work anyways. My mom caught on after a little while, though it's not hard to tell when I'm depressed at home. My senior year, no one asked me if I was okay or if everything was alright, even though I experienced more in one year than many can say they had in a lifetime. It was one thing after another, and day by day, I went to school showed sympathy to others who were effected by an event I shared with them. I asked them how they were holding up, not once did any of them ask me, I didn't show I was in pain.

     Maybe it's time to start showing emotion, but I don't want attention. Optimism is probably my biggest self harm. Not only am I lying to the people around me, some days I do need help getting through something. I also lie to myself, I pretend nothing is bothersome, I pretend I'm not in pain even though sometimes all I can see is blood dripping from my soul. I'm having a small panic attack at the moment as this is my second night without the medicine. I plan on doing a post of a severe panic attack. Optimistic people feel pain too like everyone else, they just bottle it up better.  
       

My Other Blogs

     Aside from this blog and Lorekeepers Inn, the blog a had mentioned in One Of My Other Blogs post. I almost manage another good some of blogs. I really enjoy blogging and with the OCD I have I need to have separate blogs for different topics. I know I could probably get away with only having one blog and use pages on it, but I still need to sort out different subtopics among the main topic of the blog.

Here are the other blogs I manage!

Opachii's World of Warcraft Gold Guides: This blog I created to help people in the massive multiplayer online game World of Warcraft (who would have guessed) make gold. I don't have a whole lot of content on this blog yet, but I just spent the last few days finding spots other people haven't covered. So far I have about 50+ drafts of spots surprisingly no one else has covered. Most of them make a good sum of gold as well so I can't wait to get those posts out!

Opachii's Terraria Help: This is yet another guide blog, have I mentioned how much I love helping people? As of right now, I have 104 posts but I'm taking a bit of a break from this blog I suppose. I started this blog about a month and a half ago, so I'm pretty burned out on it. Terraira is a pretty popular indy game yet many still struggle with some easy tasks. At least I find the game easy, after all I have a good amount of hours put into that game.

Opachii's Photography: This blog I created because I enjoy taking pictures, I don't like so much of being in them but I'm okay with taking them. All the photographs in this blog deal with nature, so if you enjoy roses, and pretty sunsets, this blog may be just for you! I currently have 514 photos and plan to take several more this year come the warmer seasons.

The Arcane Gamers: This is a shared blog between my brother and I. We decided to record some of our gameplay and post it on youtube, which what was posted to youtube is also in this blog.

Here in a few days I plan on doing a post on blogs I may end up doing in the future. I really enjoy blogging, or well maybe it has something to do with seeing the numbers go up... that can't be it. I really do enjoy sharing with the world and I also plan on doing a post over collections, I also like seeing numbers go up -.-.

Why I Created This Blog

     I really enjoy helping people, sometimes it is hard to do when I'm not willing to be social. I normally do okay with helping people while hiding behind a computer, though messaging people is starting to get harder and harder for me, my social anxiety is getting worse by the year, no matter how anyone looks at it. I'v been told it's been getting better but in reality I just know how to put a mask on.

     I also get panic/ anxiety attacks if I don't help someone in need or if I feel helpless which sucks, because well I can't hide from the social aspect of helping. There will always be some sort of social interaction while helping someone. Rather it be on social media or in person, verbally or through text, you are still communicating with someone to help.

     This blog helps me by allowing me to discuss a few of my past events, people who struggle find it easier knowing they aren't alone. One thing I always keep in mind is someone out there will always have it worse than you, no matter who you are, or how hard you situation can be. That is something that helped me through what was suppose to be a happy memorable year, I will be getting to that in a few days hopefully.

     I can create a community for people who either enjoy the drama filled reads, or people who may be struggling and need help. Everyone is free to leave comments, and ask questions as they please, and it can even be done anonymously. I will more than likely be posting herbal remedies for those who are sick. I have several other helpful guidance blogs for a few of the games I play.

    The biggest reason it is easier for me to help people through a blog is because I to can help anonymously. One of the biggest reasons I use a pseudonym in the titles of my blog. I'm known as "Opachii", at least to those who don't know my alias. I have never been big on being the center of attention, so why announce my real name to the public? If I continue to write books I will more than likely publish them, more than likely not this pseudonym but I will probably use one for my books.   

Why the Pseudonym "Opachii"?

     Many of my blogs have my pseudonym "Opachii", rather it's a title or the name of a character in one my of stories, Opachii will show up somewhere in my several blogs. Opachii is a name that just stuck with me and it all came from an anime.
   
     I play a good amount of online games "World of Warcraft" being one. Most online games allow you to choose a character name of your liking, there is also an option to pick a name at random, which is something I use to do, I didn't see myself creative enough at the time to come up with names on my own, that or I was just to anxious to start a new journey, and the name was a bit meaningless to me at the time.
   
     Once I started watching anime though, that all changed, I wanted to be a character from my favorite anime series. Some may consider it roll playing, but I just simply want a name corresponding to a protagonist of the anime I was currently into.

     Why I kept "Opachii" of them all? It was a unique name. Most of the time while trying to use all sorts of letters to come up with a name similar to the one I want it to resemble, the name would already have been taken. That wasn't the case with this name, for and online games, or games I was able to choose a name for that matter.

    Opachii soon became a name I rather enjoyed. After a while it lost it's anime resemblance, because many would pronounce the name wrong. It wasn't their fault though, I knew what I wanted it to sound like not what it actually sounded like. Listening to people pronounce it "wrong" I just started going with it, I liked it, and now I use it as an online alias.