Keeping Busy

     Well the last few days I've been pretty busy and I'm hoping to keep it that way. If you saw my "Felling Accomplished" post that you may already know that I've planted some rose bushes. Earlier today, before I went into work I was able to get two more bushes planted leaving two left to plant. Those two are climbing roses however and I have another place in mind to plant them. Hopefully when I get everything set up I can get a picture of them planted. I want them in an area I have surrounded by paver stones.

     It will take a lot more work and cost a bit more money to get the area looking nice, but well worth it in my opinion. Just before I went into work I was able to but two blue birdbaths for this area, and I'm hoping to get bird houses a large variety of flowers, bird feeders, and possible lattice to enclose I little bit, allowing me get another type of climbing plant.

     While I have that planed for this summer, I still have enough room for probably close to ten more roses, if not more. Still thinking about rather or not I want more roses. Along side that I want to work on my orchard, which will probably be more of just trees scattered now. I'm trying to save as much room as I can for more grape vines.

     Just as I wasn't busy enough already, my mom wanted to get more blueberry plants, and strawberries to grow in a raised boxed in area. I was hoping to spend a ton of time outside this summer and it seems I may have gotten my wish. My plans for this summer is to get enough plants that I can spend most of my day outside caring for them every summer. I'm not big on gaming or being on the computer like everyone deems I am.

     Though beehives are still on my mind for this summer, I may go with a different kind of bee instead of the honey bee. This is mostly due to the fact I work a lot and get called in a good amount, and with all these plants, I fear I won't have time to take care of the bees to the extent they need. If I am correct the Mason bee or something like that don't produce honey, but they are one of the best for pollinating, which was the main goal for bees to begin with, the honey would have been a bonus.  

     So far I have spent almost the last three days completely outside which has helped me a bit with my anxiety and depression. Though I would love to get off my medicine and use nature as a therapy, I can't relay on it because of rainy days, or even bad days in general.

     

Word of the Day: 2

     I know I didn't get my Sunday post out, I still plan on doing it, I've just been busy outside the last few days and I'm pretty wore out. When I do decided to do the post. It will only have the links up until the 17th.

Espionage- The practice of spying

Feeling Accomplished!

     Well spent my first day off work after working 10 days in a row to plant a few of my roses took me almost all day, counting the trip to town to get a few bags of soil. All that is left now is to water them. Not only do they need it, but they deserve it... Not a single cut! Well maybe one bit back but no blood.

     Not only did I manage to get this done with my time off, but I also was able to hunt for morel mushrooms today. No luck, on the bright side though I rounded close to thirty more pictures for my nature blog. I'm hoping to start posting in that fairly soon, as I now have probably close to four hundred pictures to share! Just having a difficult time figuring out how I want to share them. I could either post my limited fifty posts a day, or set it up to post a few a day. Either way it is a lot of photos to upload -.-. 

     A few weeks ago I had gotten a new phone, the iPhone 6s. With the phone comes a built in pedometer. I have been trying my best to walk the average amount of steps a day being three to four thousand. Well lets just day I walked enough today to fill in for the past few days I wasn't able to reach that amount. 

     This is only day one of a project that will probably cost me a few paychecks, though well worth it if you asked me. I plan on doing a 10' by 10' square of roses. Once I get that done I plan on doing my orchard which will only be a few trees now instead of however many I was wanting. I used up part of the area for my orchard to do a rose bed. Along side those projects I plan on planting a few more grapevines... now only to figure out where to put my flower bed.    

 

Picture Saturday: 1

Picture Wednesday: 1

      It was hard to pick just one! I don't remember where I took this picture, I believe it was a wild flower I found in a friends yard. This is one of my favorite picture, because it is also one of the best I've taken. I'm still a bit new to photography, but I really enjoy it and it is something that helps a bit with my anxiety!

A Night Never Forgotten

     I'm going to tell the story of why I believe I'm terrified to answer the phone. I'm sure there are more than one and the reason I'm so unsure is because this thought always comes to mind when the phone rings. I'm not sure how much I have mentioned about phone in previous stories, so now is a good time to go over it, possibly again.

     Whenever I was at school and heard the phone ring, I just knew it was about me, I had done something wrong even though I know I didn't. This story I'm about to tell explains why not only am I afraid to talk to someone over the phone but also why I just fear a phones. Land line phones to be exact. I don't answer the home phone unless I know it's my grandma, that's it. I will answer my cellphone on some occasions but most of the time I don't even see my phone ringing; I always have it on silent.

     It was a dark stormy night... Oh wait, wrong story. Once upon a time? No no, that's not it either. Ah this is it! I had to of been roughly seven or eight, maybe younger. It's the only memory I really have around that age. Which is why I believe I was around seven or eight. I remember I little bit of kindergarten, but not much after that up until third grade.

     I remember bits and pieces of my first and second grade years but not enough for a story, at least not yet. I'm hoping to go over bits of my past meaning I should hopefully remember things I've not thought about for year.

     It was my bed time, I was either already in bed or I was getting ready for bed. Sad I can't even remember what I was doing up until this point. It was like watching a movie only I was there. Some may think I'm over thinking this or dwelling on it to much but I'm not. Out of all the memories i have, this is the one I remember like it was just yesterday. It plays a big roll in why I have the anxiety I do. I don't remember seeing my dad talking on the phone or even getting off it. All I know is he was furious. My older sister (step sister) appeared before, and all I hear is yelling. I don't remember where my sister was standing, or anyone except my dad.

     My little brother must of already been in bed and my older brother (step brother) must have been elsewhere because I don't even remember them being in the middle of the dolor situation (hope I used that right). At first I was still trying to understand why my dad was as upset as he was, I still don't know. Next thing I know my dad slams the phone I didn't see still in his hand, on a small wooden shelf type of thing. It was thick wood or strong wood if I remember correctly. It my grandpas and it was given to my mom. I don't know if she got it before or after his passing. All I knew was it was treasured, at least from my understands it was.

     The phone nor the shelf survived, we had to go out and replace the phone the next day or something like that. I was so distraught. I felt like everyone within the room was getting yelled at from that point. I started to cry and I believe that was the point it was final, I had to go to bed. I remember my dad telling my older sister she can either leave or stay. I don't even remember was the conditions were for her to stay if she had chosen that, she didn't. For a kid my age too witness seeing their dad that angry all sorts of thoughts come to mind. I thought I was going to get a spanking just for being there and not in bed like I was suppose to be. I do believe in a well deserved spanking, but not every time you get in the littlest bit of trouble.

     Now that I am older I know of my dad and sisters relation. I had always though my dad acted the way he did because it was just who he was. But now I know the main reason was because my older sister sadly caused our parents a lot of havoc. Though I don't believe my dad actions due to the stress were justified, it's to late. The damage has already been done, and now I need medicine to do actives many other can do with little to no struggle.

Word of the Day: 1

     Today's word is: 

Dolor - it means to be in a state of sorrow or distress. 

     I'm still a little unsure how I'm going to go about these posts, I'm sure after a while it will come to me naturally. I think this will be a fun experiment, and hopefully I remember a few of these words when I write.